I’m wandering under the wayless stars,
over the naked breast of life, which resembles
the Great Sandhills of Saskatchewan. At a summit,
I see a breathing tree pointing at the sky.
I cover my face and drop to my knees.
The older I grow,
the more disarming my dreams.
The more wizened, the more fecund
my imagination.
There’s something happening to me–
a kind of interior feminization,
in active dialogue with my exterior.
Well, I’ve never been in demand as a he-man.
I would be held in derision by a Joe Rogan,
exampled, as sociocultural degradation, by a Jordan Peterson.
Although, I’ve seen the man weep,
and thought,
he may not be far off,
the turn toward humility and inclusive compassion.
Though I could be wrong.
Perhaps I’m hormonal.
Deb reminds me,
“Andropause is a thing. It’s been going at you for a while.”
Well then, bring it on!
For increasingly, a searching simplicity is stripping me;
a germinating serenity is bewitching me:
I dream the rise of silence in this sleepless city;
I imagine the encampments, gatherings of broken light,
crystalline and shimmering;
I envision nations searching their souls,
and celebrating, together,
the destruction of the very last drone;
I picture a peace not based on force,
but enlivening, artful, numinous.
So I am not a rational man.
Just a man who walks like an exposed soul,
believing the world, despite the ocean of human suffering,
is beautiful and has meaning beyond the meaning we give it,
or can possibly imagine it.
In the end, I hope they’ll say, he was undone,
by the intimate perplexity of a tree,
pointing beyond the sky.